I feel so much better when I am away from the Guardian Home. All I can hear are gunshots there. I have dubbed it the Gunnian, and while I do play like I am tough, I really don’t feel like being face to face with a crazed Gunman right now, or at anytime with nothing to protect myself.
I don’t understand why people have to act so tough all the time. Why are they acting that way, what is the mystery, and do I want to know? If I knew, could I change the violence into peace and understanding? Not to sound like a hippie child, but damn. When does it end? Do I need to sacrifice my life for another to get there kicks by killing an innocent human being (me) for the world to be happy?
I know I aint much to look at but where do you think scars and eating disorders come from? Mistreatment by peers…so when you look at me, just think, I am the reflection of what your Wicked Cliquey ways have made me. And I am still here, still alive, and feel better than ever about myself and don’t need anyone to tell me different of fake tell me they love me cuz I love myself now and that’s all that matters. If that’s selfish than so be it…